Limited amounts of sleep. I tried to go to sleep sometime around 9:30 this morning, actually. I was up and running by 1 p.m. There were things to do and phone calls to make. Lots of conversations today... lots of things to think about.
I've got something pretty big on my heart. Something I can't quite talk about here. It's complicated. I've been praying for direction. Some things are going on that actually have nothing to do with me, yet effect me.
Talked with a friend tonight about life after divorce. I cannot fathom another man touching me. I can't imagine dating, marrying or living with another man. I was comfortable. There's something to be said for comfort. It's scary to think of having to start over.
My husband is gone. He's been gone for a while. I very much feel like he died... and he's a memory. The things I remember are mostly good. The guy I have to deal with right now... oy, I wouldn't have a relationship with him in a million years. The thought that I'm legally tied to this guy...
Right now... I'm standing back and watching... to see what happens. I can't change it, I can't alter it, but in the end... our sins always find us out.
I've got something pretty big on my heart. Something I can't quite talk about here. It's complicated. I've been praying for direction. Some things are going on that actually have nothing to do with me, yet effect me.
Talked with a friend tonight about life after divorce. I cannot fathom another man touching me. I can't imagine dating, marrying or living with another man. I was comfortable. There's something to be said for comfort. It's scary to think of having to start over.
My husband is gone. He's been gone for a while. I very much feel like he died... and he's a memory. The things I remember are mostly good. The guy I have to deal with right now... oy, I wouldn't have a relationship with him in a million years. The thought that I'm legally tied to this guy...
Right now... I'm standing back and watching... to see what happens. I can't change it, I can't alter it, but in the end... our sins always find us out.
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