I am in a significant amount of pain right now. I've been hurting for about 3-4 days now. At first I though it was just a kidney stone... but right now I'm fairly convinced I either have appendicitis or a cyst/tumor on my ovary. I can't cough, deeply breathe, walk, move or stand without a deep, sharp pain low on the right side of my abdomen. I'd lean more toward the ovary issue. Bleh. I pushed on the area really hard earlier to see what would happen and when I came to, I decided i'd never do that again. Oy. Right now I'm slightly concerned over the fact that I've developed a fever. :(
I am looking forward to the new year... but mostly, I'm looking forward to February. I am so anxious to get all this garbage over with and finally get Paul OUT f my life forever. Once the divorce is final, I can change my phone number and can do whatever I want without any concern about whether or not he has to be notified. It was kind of sad to realize that I'm not in love with him anymore, but it was also freeing.
Been spending lots of time with friends and with my buddy... I'm trying to be very careful with my emotions, but I admit, I think about this one particular person a little more than I should. My heart is safely hidden behind a massive amount of concrete and steel, but is still a portion of me that remembers how great it feels to let your heart get carried away. The fear of having a repeat of Paul is all I need to bring me back to earth. I NEVER want to be with someone like Paul ever again. EVER.
I was offered a job in Wichita. I talked to this particular person (forevermore referred to as "buddy") about the job and he said if I felt like I should take it, I should go... he basically gave me his blessing. I know he just wants to see me happy. He was there for me since before I moved out and has listened to me vent and sat with me when I cried... there are days when I think I surely would have tracked Paul down and beat the snot out of him if not for this guy telling me that Paul wasn't worth a second thought.
I don't know how serious my thoughts are on Wichita. For the most part, I really feel like I need to wait until the divorce is final. I can't go to another state while my ex-husband and his shemale slut are living in MY house. Until they're out or he forks over $71,000, I don't feel comfortable just leaving them to their own devices on MY property. Plus I don't want to have to come all the way back to Indiana for the divorce hearing just to have Paul have it postponed again.
Anyway, I'm having trouble sitting up at this point. Pain's getting worse. :( Gonna try to sleep and hope the pain just goes away. If not, I'll be spending New Year's Eve in the ER. :(
I am looking forward to the new year... but mostly, I'm looking forward to February. I am so anxious to get all this garbage over with and finally get Paul OUT f my life forever. Once the divorce is final, I can change my phone number and can do whatever I want without any concern about whether or not he has to be notified. It was kind of sad to realize that I'm not in love with him anymore, but it was also freeing.
Been spending lots of time with friends and with my buddy... I'm trying to be very careful with my emotions, but I admit, I think about this one particular person a little more than I should. My heart is safely hidden behind a massive amount of concrete and steel, but is still a portion of me that remembers how great it feels to let your heart get carried away. The fear of having a repeat of Paul is all I need to bring me back to earth. I NEVER want to be with someone like Paul ever again. EVER.
I was offered a job in Wichita. I talked to this particular person (forevermore referred to as "buddy") about the job and he said if I felt like I should take it, I should go... he basically gave me his blessing. I know he just wants to see me happy. He was there for me since before I moved out and has listened to me vent and sat with me when I cried... there are days when I think I surely would have tracked Paul down and beat the snot out of him if not for this guy telling me that Paul wasn't worth a second thought.
I don't know how serious my thoughts are on Wichita. For the most part, I really feel like I need to wait until the divorce is final. I can't go to another state while my ex-husband and his shemale slut are living in MY house. Until they're out or he forks over $71,000, I don't feel comfortable just leaving them to their own devices on MY property. Plus I don't want to have to come all the way back to Indiana for the divorce hearing just to have Paul have it postponed again.
Anyway, I'm having trouble sitting up at this point. Pain's getting worse. :( Gonna try to sleep and hope the pain just goes away. If not, I'll be spending New Year's Eve in the ER. :(
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