I've been making plans. A friend is helping me get a job where she works and I'm making a budget to try to sustain myself for the next six months. My best friend is being harassed daily to move from Texas to Indiana and so far has not said no and actually seems open to the idea. The thought of starting this new chapter is scary, but also kind of exciting.
I have an open invitation to visit a friend in Tennessee and I'll be visiting a friend in Michigan in January (so I can spoil her kid rotten!) :) I hope to save up enough money to upgrade my vehicle. I don't know which vehicle the judge will give me in the divorce, so until I'm sure, I'm not picking out any specific type. I'll drive what I'm given until I can afford and upgrade.
Past that, I plan on finally getting on the budget I've always wanted to be on and really save money the way I'd planned. Nothing is holding me back from doing it now. It hurts that I'll only have one income, but there will be one less person spending money, which will help.
I had a friend offer to set me up with someone and I turned them down. Heh. I'm not ready for any of that. Even after the divorce is final... there's a lot of healing to do before I'm ready to get involved with someone. That being said, if God put someone in my life, I'm not going to close my heart to the idea. Who knows what will happen?
Another friend is going to take me to sing karaoke here in a few weeks. That should be interesting. :) I haven't sang karaoke (or in public) for a while... I'm convincing a guy friend of mine to come with me. He thinks I'm gonna make a jerk of myself and doesn't want to miss it. :P
I've also decided to get a tattoo... to remember the babies. I plan on getting tiny footprints with wings and March 2009/December 2009 under it. Not sure where I'm putting it. Thought about my wrist, but then if someone saw it... I don't know I'd want to explain. Dunno.
Anyway... the possibility of being busy is good. Being with friends is good. Being able to be with friends without getting a guilt trip is better. Things are gonna work out. Eventually.
I have an open invitation to visit a friend in Tennessee and I'll be visiting a friend in Michigan in January (so I can spoil her kid rotten!) :) I hope to save up enough money to upgrade my vehicle. I don't know which vehicle the judge will give me in the divorce, so until I'm sure, I'm not picking out any specific type. I'll drive what I'm given until I can afford and upgrade.
Past that, I plan on finally getting on the budget I've always wanted to be on and really save money the way I'd planned. Nothing is holding me back from doing it now. It hurts that I'll only have one income, but there will be one less person spending money, which will help.
I had a friend offer to set me up with someone and I turned them down. Heh. I'm not ready for any of that. Even after the divorce is final... there's a lot of healing to do before I'm ready to get involved with someone. That being said, if God put someone in my life, I'm not going to close my heart to the idea. Who knows what will happen?
Another friend is going to take me to sing karaoke here in a few weeks. That should be interesting. :) I haven't sang karaoke (or in public) for a while... I'm convincing a guy friend of mine to come with me. He thinks I'm gonna make a jerk of myself and doesn't want to miss it. :P
I've also decided to get a tattoo... to remember the babies. I plan on getting tiny footprints with wings and March 2009/December 2009 under it. Not sure where I'm putting it. Thought about my wrist, but then if someone saw it... I don't know I'd want to explain. Dunno.
Anyway... the possibility of being busy is good. Being with friends is good. Being able to be with friends without getting a guilt trip is better. Things are gonna work out. Eventually.
I consulted a tattoo artist regarding something smaller on my wrist (for ease of concealing or showing--depending on what I wanted to do). Was advised that smaller tats--especially on a high-traffic area like the wrist--will likely need a touch-up (moreso than say one on your back) and the smaller they are, the more they will bleed into a blob as your skin ages. I was going to get a paw print, but after learning about this, I decided not to... for now. So you might consider somewhere else on your body or a tattoo that would be recognizable even if it bled/smudged a bit.
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